Life may not be better if you work hard, but if you don’t work hard, you will not be better if you don’t work hard. This sentence is a true portrayal of me. I am seeking survival in the cracks. While supporting my family, raising children, and also dealing with my parents-in-law

Life may not be better if you work hard, but if you don’t work hard, you will not be better if you don’t work hard. This sentence is a true portrayal of me. I am seeking survival in the cracks, while supporting my family and raising children, and also dealing with my in-laws who are provoking trouble and my husband who are seriously macho. Every day, I work hard, be cautious in being a human being, and carefully observe my words and expressions. I must protect myself from being hurt, and also care about my daughter’s young hearts and not be affected by this cruel life. For decades, I will have the same dream. When I encounter danger or need help, no one can find me, and no one can help me. Without exception, I will wake up in a collapse. Although I am very far away from my parents-in-law now and have no connection, every time I dream that my parents-in-law bullies me, I will wake up in sorrow that I cry and then can't fall asleep for a long time.

In early spring in 2000, when it was warm and cold, the mountains and fields were full of green, and the grass quietly drilled out of the ground, dyeing the desolate land green, and the ditches and troughs were covered in green, and the continuous green extended to the endless horizon. The trees have also sprouted. The lush and primitive deep forest exudes its unique historical charm. The colorful leaves render the eight hundred miles of Funiu Mountains. The colorful color combination is as wonderful as landscape paintings. There is also the clear and transparent mountain spring water. In the river water that looks to the bottom, groups of happy little fish swimming around, chasing and playing in the spring water. Children who took off their thick winter clothes ran in the fields, played by the river, chased and played in the forsythia , which bloomed everywhere. In the spring season, the elderly can finally walk out of their homes, sit together in groups of three or five, and chat about the past and think about the sweetness of the past in the warm sunshine, with their faces filled with the faint sadness of the past and their yearning for the beautiful future.

There are always things that are hard to guard against in life. It is unexpected and unexpected. When I was in school, I was very quiet during class. Lin Ke and I were at the same table at that time. I heard his heartbeat sound very different. I also joked: Your heartbeat sound has accompaniment. Later, his parents took him to Luoyang for examination and confirmed that he had congenital heart disease and rheumatic aortic valve insufficiency. At that time, his parents did not pay attention to this condition. Maybe he was young and had no discomfort symptoms. Until he got up that morning, after coughing suddenly, he vomited a lot of blood. I was shocked and helped him sit down and wiped him clean with paper. I thought it was the stomach bleeding caused by drinking too much yesterday. I never expected it to be a heart attack. His parents played cards early in the town, and there was no one at home. I quickly ran to Aunt Liu's house, handed her daughter to her for care, ran back anxiously, rode a motorcycle to take him to the hospital. Along the way, he kept coughing and vomiting constantly. The towel in his hand was soaked with blood. I rode to the hospital as fast as possible, and didn't bother to say hello to the acquaintances on the road, and rushed forward.

A day of couples, a hundred days of gratitude, a hundred days of couples are like deep in the sea. Although he is often beaten, scolded and abused by him, after all, he is still the father of his daughter. I also hope he is safe and healthy. At least with him, my daughter also has a so-called complete family. Because of my life experience, I think no matter what, I will not let my daughter become a child of a single-parent family. The suffering I have suffered will not let my daughter experience the same as me. If I can tolerate it in life, I will tolerate it, and as long as I don’t cure me to death, as long as I have a little foothold, I will swallow my anger and accept and tolerate it. I always remind myself that if I want to achieve great things, I must have a strong heart to face all unfair people and things. (To be continued)