Your Mid-Autumn Festival, my loneliness

For most people, holidays mean happiness.

For me, vacation = loneliness.

After graduating from another city and going home to work, I have made friends in other cities far away, and I can only say a few words occasionally through the chat tool.

The different choice directions mean different life trajectories. At a certain fork, you rush towards your respective goals. A group of friends accompany you on a journey, but after all, you have to finish it by yourself.

I have a primary school, from kindergarten to university, we all study together, I have to say it is a kind of fate. We are in the same university, but we choose two directions. He studied clinical medicine, which requires continuous learning. Healers have a great responsibility! He is struggling on the road to postgraduate entrance examination for his career and dreams.

And my major is chemistry, but in the four years of university study, I could not feel the love for him, which made it impossible for me to choose to continue my theoretical studies. I need to go to the company and explore this industry What makes me love, only if I love it, will there be a steady stream of motivation.

So, I chose employment.

From 7.19 to 9.19 that is today, I have been working for two months.

In these two months, I deeply realized my shortcomings.

Compared with the research and development staff, my knowledge is far from enough. Compared with the production staff, I don't know anything about the technology of the workshop.

For me, this is a blow.

In the workplace, I can also experience a kind of loneliness. I can't integrate into these two circles, as if I am separated by them. In fact, I understand that for them, my existence is unnecessary.

Now that I have worked, the people I will often meet in the future are my colleagues.

Some of them already have families and want to stay with their wives and children. I have my own small circle, and I can't squeeze in for a short time. So,I am the lone traveler in their eyes.

Being alone is really not a good experience. In an empty home, I was the only one. I was bored playing games for a while, so I turned off the computer. After reading the news for a while, no one came to chat with me, so I put down the phone.

I had to lie on the bed, staring at the ceiling in a daze, and fell asleep in a daze. When I woke up, my brain was dizzy, my eyes were open as if there was mist all around, I struggled for a while and barely had a moment of sobriety, with my hands on I waved on the bed looking for the lost mobile phone, and when I got it, I turned on the screen to take a look at the time. It was already evening, and then I took a look at the photos of their friends who went out to play together. Suddenly, there was an illusion that I shouldn't wake up.

Endless loneliness, do not want to take a holiday.

If you don't have a holiday, somehow someone can talk without being silent.

If you don't have a holiday, you know what you are doing, so you won't be confused.

But there are so many ifs in life, loneliness is the norm.

I only hope that I can move forward in the dark and work hard in loneliness.

The strangers who saw this article, I hope you will not be alone.

mutual encouragement.

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