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when I calmly accept the mediocrity of life.
01
has been on duty for one month.
This is a moldy day. It rained non-stop, even on occasional sunny days, the air was filled with the smell of humidity.
The smell of dampness is the smell of loneliness.
My clothes were hanging on the balcony day and night, suffering the storm and tearing.
I didn't open the curtains to have a look to see if the torrential rain had destroyed the dying moon chair on the balcony.
The simple and scientific geometric lines of that chair have always been my haggard frame, a dark cage, and a solid armor for my fragile body.
I did not go to see if the moon chair is still in good condition. I came to the study and continued to review finance and real estate, picking up the lost concepts and professions, and returning to the workaholic ego .
The next morning,I woke up in a hurry and watched the afterimages of my dream disappear in the morning light.
Get in the car, drive on the road, pass the traffic lights, and then spend 8 hours in the exhausted office building.
People who care about me say: You like this.
I swallowed what I wanted to say.
"I fall, I also feel sad."
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not swim only Go with the flow.
02
has a lot of weirdness.So I am a heinous sinner.
On the first day of work, the boss asked me to use work WeChat, saying that it was to prevent colleagues from seeing my personal WeChat circle of friends and thinking about it.
The next day, the boss said that my dress was "too distinctive", and he euphemistically suggested that I dress up a little more.
On the third day, the boss hinted at me in a roundabout way, not to talk too much about my private life with my colleagues.
I’ll say everything.
My existence is a controversial existence.
When I walk into the elevator whose route is strictly limited, it means that here, my route will also be strictly limited.
Removed the flaming red lips, wiped off the oil powder, put away the charming long skirt, and the golden wavy curly hair is more like the only clue to the deliberately hidden truth of life.
I keep smiling, follow the rules, and work hard.
All top students in the new unit, Ph.D. from Yale Oxford, Hong Kong University Tsinghua professor, the most common question is "What do you think or feel about XX?" So, the poetic language began to shift from my article to a summary and report.
In broad daylight, I am quiet and simple, young and beautiful.
Occasionally in a daze, I can't remember how to call it.
colleagues just joked and said that they would post me a small advertisement for marriage, which should be posted on the top of "opening the locks, passing the sewers, and curing syphilis".
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03
on the way home.
Conversations often start with "what do you do".
The first driver, I told him that I work as a secretary in a foreign company and work part-time in a nightclub selling alcohol at night.
When he heard this, he suddenly became very excited and said he would come to play and contact me when he was free.
He asked me which nightclub I was, but I did not answer.
The second driver, I told him that I am an emotional counselor who specializes in providing solutions to people who are emotionally or emotionally confused.
I said,On average, more than 500 customers come to me for consultation every month.
After chatting for more than ten minutes, he started to share his story with me. He told me that he married his girlfriend who had been in love for 6 years last year, but his life after marriage was not as happy as he imagined. Now he often wonders if his choice is too hasty and lacks thoughtfulness.
He asked me if I had any good suggestions.
Looking at the busy road outside the car window and the thriving green trees on both sides of the road, I said: "Don't take a long life to wrap up one of your mistakes." _pspan11span8 p The third driver, I told him that I was a writer and was experiencing life in search of writing materials.
His questions are all written on his face. The strong Cantonese accent reveals an unconcealed ridicule (or jealousy?) of the "different kind of not doing business properly".
I feel unfortunate for him.
Later,I met a beautiful female driver with deep thinking and talked all the way.
When I parted, she suggested that I eat more vanilla ice cream, she said it can bring people happiness.
I took off the cross from my neck and put it in the car secretly.
Occasionally when the driver picks up a conversation without wanting to speak, I pretend to be dumb by gestures.
One day, I suddenly felt that these drivers may not be real drivers. Maybe they are just lonely idlers who just want to pass the time and are bored, or they are the prodigal who came out to hunt for beauty. An urban researcher who spy on the lives of others.
What is their true identity? No one knows, no one wants to know.
After all, in this world, people don’t need the truth.
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Aeolian.
troubles are coming as expected.
Unrelated past events came to my mind, and I waited silently for the light and glimpses of the lonely city to gradually dissipate.
think of some insignificant people, think of the misty future.
My peach always thinks of me when I don't have any money to spend, and I can't do without a lot of cynicism when I ask for it.
Two days ago, she said she couldn't live any longer.
I said, that’s good, and get out of the sea of suffering as soon as possible.
She pretended to be very disappointed and started to attack. She couldn't understand why I drank 5000 yuan of wine, but couldn't give her 500 yuan for a decent dinner.
"She leads her comfortable and high-end life, pursuing her idealism while practicing her realism."
In the night, I said that I would raise her in the future. Later, someone asked me back: Is love anymore, is commitment still important? Those messy shards are always ramming in the floating night, occasionally stabbing the heart with a knife, and blood foam swaying in the chest cavity. Every night, the moment I put down the phone, I feel a great emptiness.
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05
. What should I say when I always think about it?
When you are not talking, things come out of your eyes.
The body is getting worse.
Although the eyes will see filth, the ears will hear noise, the mouth will say the wrong thing, kiss the wrong person, and the nose will not ventilate when you have a cold, but you really need them.
24 hours in summer are getting longer and longer.
In life, there are too many things we can do nothing about.
"Let go of all your work and worry, and go to sleep."
.hi. I am Jane Yu.
The text we need should be a sharp axe that can break through the sea of ice in our hearts.
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May you be here, infinitely close to the ideal.
