One day in October 1976, Zhu Mei, who was preparing to divorce Jin Yong, received news of the suicide of his eldest son, , Zha Chuanxia .
After hanging up, she was numb for a long time, then she cried bitterly and fell into deep self-blame.
If you don't tell your son about the relationship between the two of you, if you pay more attention to some of your son's emotions, will this tragedy not happen?
The husband who changed his heart, the son who committed suicide, this double fatal blow almost left Zhu Mei out of pain.
Zhu Mei looked at the old photos of her son, and her heart was torn violently. He was still a child under twenty years old, why did things turn out like this!
Cha Chuanxia is the first child of Jin Yong and Zhu Mei. He is smart and early-minded. Even though Jin Yong was busy at work, he would still teach his son the "Three Character Classic" after returning home.
He often praised this son for being the most like himself, and he will certainly inherit his mantle in the future.
Zha Chuanxia carries the expectations of his parents for the eldest son, and also witnesses the love of his parents.
Zhu Mei recalled her 20-year marriage with Jin Yong. The sweetness is gone, the marriage leaves the shell of the law, and the love has long since worn out.
Du Yefen and Jin Yong
Jin Yong in 1953 just ended his five-year marriage with his first wife Du Yefen.
Jin Yong, who is hurt by love, focuses on his career and devotes himself to writing scripts and novels.
I met Zhu Mei, a young and beautiful reporter in the work of a newspaper,At that time, Jin Yong was famous for his " Book and Sword Encounter Record ". Zhu Mei, who was attracted by Jin Yong's talent, quickly fell in love. The two in love often cuddled with each other by the Zhuqi Jiuqu Bridge.
Zhu Mei is a top student who graduated from University of Hong Kong . She speaks fluent and beautiful English. She is very enterprising and an out-and-out strong woman.
Zhu Mei’s family heard that Jin Yong was married again, and they were both poor and white. They said they didn’t agree with the marriage.
But Zhu Mei appreciates Jin Yong's talent very much. Despite her parents' objections, she is still willing to marry Jin Yong. She knows that Jin Yong has potential.
Zhu Mei’s parents know that their daughter has a strong personality. Once they decide on their mind, they won’t change it, so they can only agree.
On May 1, 1956, Zhu Mei and 32-year-old Jin Yong held their wedding at the Mira Hong Kong Hotel. Many celebrities came to the banquet.
Zhu Mei and Jin Yong
The two of them pronounced the sacred and solemn marriage vows in the blessings of everyone.
"I want her to be my wife. From today onwards, we will have and support each other. Whether it is good or bad, rich or poor, health or disease, we will love and cherish each other, until death can we be separated."
At that moment, 21-year-old Zhu Mei firmly believed that they would go hand in hand to the end.
Soon after his marriage, Jin Yong entered the Great Wall Film Company as a full-time screenwriter and wrote many excellent scripts.
Six months later, Zhu Mei and Jin Yong gave birth to their first child, Zha Chuanxia.
The arrival of Cha Chuanxia gave the family of three a layer of happiness. He is not only the crystallization of the love between the two, but also the first child in Jin Yong's life, and he is very much loved by Jin Yong.
Jin Yong and his children
Cha Chuanxia inherited excellent genes from his parents,Very talented in literature.
Jin Yong patiently accompanies his children to learn the "San Zi Jing" after get off work every day, so that he can recite the "San Zi Jing" in full at the age of four.
Jin Yong is very proud of this. He feels that his son is very talented and will inherit his mantle in the future and become an outstanding writer.
But as he grows older, Zha Chuanxia's melancholic and perceptual character is gradually exposed. At the age of 11, he began to think about life and wrote the article "What is my life for?"
The article stated his pessimistic attitude towards life, thinking that life is bitter and meaningless.
But at that time Jin Yong and Zhu Mei were busy with work and had no time to take care of their son's emotional changes, which indirectly led to the tragedy of Zha Chuanxia's subsequent suicide.
In 1959, Jin Yong, who had worked in " Ta Kung Pao " and "Southeast Daily", was not satisfied with the status quo, and decided to jointly invest 100,000 yuan to establish Ming Pao with his friend Shen Baoxin.
Ta Kung Pao Hall
Although this road is difficult, his wife Zhu Mei still fully supports him.
They kept changing the content of the newspaper supplement and tried to change the news route, but the sales of Ming Pao only hovered around 1,000 copies. Even though Jin Yong was sick with serial novels, they still couldn't make up for it, and the shortfall was serious.
The initial stage of his business was the low period of Jin Yong's life. As the editor-in-chief of the newspaper, he often wrote articles overnight. As the founder of the newspaper, he was also facing a financial dilemma.
At this time, they welcomed their second child, and the family expenses also increased.
All this embarrassed the two of them.
But see the truth in adversity,At this time, the pampered Zhu Mei did not complain about this difficult period, but chose to fight shoulder to shoulder with her husband to survive this difficult period together.
When the newspaper staff is not enough, she takes the initiative to act as a reporter, take up the interview work, and do not pay a penny.
When the newspaper was short of funds, she reluctantly sold her dowry gold and silver jewelry.
In addition to taking care of the children every day, I have to travel to Kowloon and Hong Kong Island to deliver meals to Jin Yong.
Ming Pao
The coffee time in the afternoon is the only consolation for the two of them after a hard day.
Every afternoon, Jin Yong and Zhu Mei, who are tired, come to the cafe and order a cup of coffee to relieve their fatigue. At this time, they have one of the few leisure time.
In order to save money, the two always only order a cup of coffee and enjoy this "luxury" cup of coffee while chatting, without daring to waste a drop.
Zhu Mei stirred the coffee, but she didn't feel bitter at all. She only felt that the coffee filled her energy, and she still had the momentum.
Young Jin Yong
Whenever they get off work late at night, the night breeze is blowing, they always have to wait at the dock for the electric boat to gather six people to set off.
Because it is too late, the Star Ferry has been suspended long ago. Only the electric boat can cross the sea, but each time the electric boat has to wait for six people to set off, the ferry will be cheaper. If you want to arrive soon To open, a three yuan charter fee is required.
While waiting, they would look at the stars in the sky and snuggle together to keep warm, or chat, which is also considered a joy in hardship.
With the joint efforts of the husband and wife, Ming Pao finally sold more than 30,000 copies in July 1962.Turning losses into profits and getting rid of financial difficulties.
Jin Yong (right)
After that, Jin Yong founded several sub-issues. The influence of Ming Pao in Hong Kong has gradually expanded, and it has competed with Oriental Daily and Sing Tao Daily.
Keeping the clouds open and seeing the moonlight, Jin Yong finally ushered in the peak of his career.
Zhu Mei gave birth to two more children. So far, from a family of four to a family of six, both children are often enviable.
But the good times did not last long, and the economic improvement did not make the family more harmonious, but exposed more contradictions.
When working hard to start a business, the two have the same goal, to be frugal, tolerant and support each other.
When the newspaper became more and more brilliant, the former skill became unreasonable, Jin Yong became increasingly unable to bear his wife's strength, and quarrels became commonplace. Both official and private matters could become the fuse to ignite the two.
The appearance of a woman makes this marriage more precarious.
Jin Yong and Zhu Mei had a big quarrel, and went out of the door. Angrily, they came to the restaurant next to the newspaper and ordered a cup of coffee, intending to use coffee to relieve the depression in their hearts.
At this time, Jin Yong became famous in Hong Kong, and his series of martial arts novels gained a large number of loyal fans.
When the waitress served him coffee, before he said "thank you", he heard a small exclamation: "Are you Mr. Jin Yong?"
Lin Leyi and Jin Yong
Jin Yongqi At the beginning, the girl in front of me was only twenty years old, with a sweet smile and unconcealable admiration on the young and beautiful face.
He couldn't help but think back, how long has it been since Zhu Mei smiled at him like this? When did they start a small noise for three days,Have a big noise in five days? Their marriage seems to be a stagnant pool, with no vitality.
"Mr. Jin Yong, I like your novels very much."
Lin Leyi didn't want to miss this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, so she mustered up the courage to chat with Jin Yong about his love for martial arts novels.
Jin Yong was very happy to hear this. He is a rare confidant in his life, and the sorrow of quarreling with Zhu Mei just now has been wiped out.
When Jin Yong left, he specially gave her a ten yuan tip.
In the 1970s, ten yuan was not a small sum, it was half a month's living expenses for ordinary people.
Faced with such a tempting tip, Lin Leyi refused.
"You usually have a hard time writing to make money, and I can't ask for this money."
Jin Yong was moved by this sentence. Even the waiter in the restaurant who meets across the river can understand his difficulty, why his wife can't.
When in trouble, he needs a strong wife to take care of everything for him. When he is rich, he wants a gentle woman to accompany him.
This ten yuan tip has become a heart bridge connecting the two.
Lin Leyi and Jin Yong
Second, Lin Leyi must be sterilized, and Jin Yong cannot have children.
Lin Leyi loves Jin Yong's outstanding talents, and Jin Yong loves Lin Leyi's gentle and intimate.
If a beautiful woman can properly use the four weapons of smiling, obedient, complimenting, and caring, at least ninety-nine and a half of a hundred men will fall at her feet.
Lin Leyi is the woman who captured Jin Yong.
Soon after, Jin Yong bought a real estate in Happy Valley and began to live with Lin Leyi.
But the paper couldn't contain the fire after all, and Zhu Mei soon discovered Jin Yong's secret.
On weekdays, Jin Yong writes manuscripts at home and is sent to the newspaper office. If the two quarrel, Jin Yong writes the manuscript directly at the newspaper office.
However, Zhu Mei recently discovered that Jin Yong neither writes at home nor writes in newspapers. The manuscripts are delivered by the driver every day.
Where else can Jin Yong write? Zhu Mei had a bad feeling in her heart.
Under her questioning, the driver finally revealed Jin Yong's extramarital affairs.
She was shocked and furious. Although she quarreled over trivial matters on weekdays, she did not expect her extramarital affairs.
Actually, Jin Yong's empathy and dearth had a clue for a long time, but Zhu Mei didn't care about it.
Xia Meng
In the 1950s, Xia Meng was a popular movie star and Jin Yong's dream lover at that time. Jin Yong always treated her very special.
At that time, Xia Meng had traveled abroad for a period of time, and Jin Yong began to publish in the Ming Pao, and opened up the column "Xiamengyouji" to publish his travel prose.
This move is a precedent for Ming Pao. After all, this newspaper is a political newspaper that mainly reports and reviews current affairs.
In addition, Jin Yong wrote an interesting editorial "Xia Meng's Spring Dream" especially for Xia Meng.
"The summer dream in my life is so beautiful, and its bright light dazzles me; the summer dream on the screen is more beautiful, the star's demeanor makes my heart beat faster, and the soul is hooked."
Such a straightforward evaluation is enough to explain Jin Yong's fascination with Xia Meng.
But Zhu Mei disagrees, and only treats him as a star chaser.
Jin Yong and Xia Meng
Later Xia Meng tactfully rejected Jin Yong,This unrequited love can only be turned over without a slap.
But this time, Lin Leyi did not reject Jin Yong.
Her young face reminded Jin Yong of that unrequited unrequited love when she was young. The two hit it off and Jin Yong even wanted to divorce her.
Zhu Mei, who has a strong personality, naturally cannot accept that her husband, for a waitress, has to end his 20-year marriage with herself.
The two had a big quarrel, which broke the already precarious marriage.
Zhu Mei is like Zhao Min written by Jin Yong, who dare to love and hate, and never will.
She didn't entangle too much, but just made two conditions. As long as Jin Yong agrees, she can agree to a divorce.
One is to give her a sum of money as compensation.
Second, Lin Leyi must be sterilized, and Jin Yong can no longer have children.
As a wife, she cannot keep her husband, but as a mother, she will definitely fight for the best interests of her children.
Jin Yong, Zhu Mei and their children
Zha Chuanxia, who was studying in the United States, tried to persuade her parents to divorce, but Zhu Mei's eyes could not contain sand, and divorce was a certainty.
Cha Chuanxia knew that this matter was unable to recover. Faced with the failed marriage of his parents and conflicts with his girlfriend, he became even more tired of the world, and finally suffered a depression and chose to end his young life.
In October 1976, news of his son's suicide came, which was a bolt from the blue for Jin Yong.
He was heartbroken and asked himself every day, why did his son commit suicide? Why did you suddenly abandon life? He even wanted to go with him.
He really doesn't want to believe that his smart son has really passed away.
As the eldest son, Zha Chuanxia has always been the jewel in the palm of his parents.
When he was born, his family was not rich, but Jin Yong was still frugal and hired a nanny for him.
Jin Yong and his daughter Zha Chuan Na
His son is so clever, he can recite the "Three Character Classic" at the age of four, and the "Zengguang Xianwen" at the age of six.
At a young age, he likes to stand quietly at his desk, watching him write and write calligraphy.
He will also enthusiastically tell the story of his new creation to his son.
When he grew up, Zha Chuanxia also liked to read his father's novels. When he read it, he was attentive, and he couldn't even hear his father calling him.
At that time, Jin Yong often smiled and said to Zhu Mei: "Look, you have a bookworm son."
At that time, he was proud and proud. He expected his son to grow up to stand shoulder to shoulder with him. But never thought of the scene where the white-haired man gave the black-haired man.
Grieving Jin Yong will also spread his anger on Zhu Mei. He thinks that Zhu Mei should not tell his son that they are going to divorce. This indirectly killed him.
But children also have the right to know.
Although Zhu Mei was not at fault, her son's departure did plunge her into deep self-blame.
The so-called "The love of a child is profound, and you must plan for it."
When the two divorced, Zhu Mei did not fight for the custody of the three children, because she knew that the children would have a broader development with Jin Yong .
Not long after the two signed the divorce agreement, Jin Yong also regretted everything that Zhu Mei had done for him and tried to stay.
But there is no turning back at the bow. Zhu Mei is determined and she cannot accept an unfaithful marriage.
Soon, 52-year-old Jin Yong married 23-year-old Lin Leyi, and she will be taken with her in all public places.
And Zhu Mei disappeared in front of them, walking alone, the pain of losing her son and the betrayal of her husband would take a lifetime to heal.
When Jin Yong was asked "how to maintain a good relationship between husband and wife" in his later years, he smiled and said: "She usually accommodates me in everything. When she loses her temper, I can't help but turn back."
Jin Yong found his ideal lover, but Zhu Mei never married again.
In the autumn of 1998, Zhu Mei died of tuberculosis at Aberdeen Rutton Hospital, and walked through her 63 years of life alone.
At the time of her death, there were no family members to accompany her, only the hospital staff took the death certificate for her, and the evening scene was bleak.
It wasn't until many years after her death that she waited for Jin Yong's "I'm sorry".
Love did not know where it started, went deep, hate did not know where it ended, laughed and disappeared...
After all, this apology came too late.
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